The struggle continues - Carefule when using Guru.com

Lately the test on mental toughness has been incredibly taxing.

Its come to my realization I have picked the wrong developer to create my website. So anyone happen to read this and thinking about using a free lancer over the internet - DO NOT, Do Not use a freelancer on guru.com that is based in Pakistan.
We are currently on the final milestone. The work is so amateurish with so many errors. I had to find myself apologizing like it was my fault in the communication.
I've had it. I just want to get this developer to migrate the website to Go Daddy and hire other developers to fix the thing.

You get what you pay for. A cheap developer from Pakistan will create a crappy product. 

Basically the whole website is a joke. Now having to find people to fix a website. Normally it is not a big deal for normal folks. But for me, it is extremely mentally arduous. For there is no money.

This dream, basically was over a few days ago. I literally had only 50 dollars left to my name. I already had borrowed $1000 from my sister a couple months ago and did not want to go back to that well. This project will need to be shelved to some distant future.
For like Maslow's Pyramid, how am I suppose to work on a website when basic needs are not met? Worst phone call was 2 days ago, when I called my son and explained why there is a good chance i have to shut off his phone.

I called the lady that usually lets me park in her driveway. The weather is getting cold. I asked her if I can park in the driveway, have electricity for heater. And I asked her if she could ignore the $150 monthly fee until I can pay her again. She said no. She said she was not comfortable supporting someone without a job and the only thing going is a dream of a website. 

So I have a junk website that needs 2 revisions. There is no money to even live. The weather is getting cold. The psychological turmoil. I had never been so fearful of my future. My physical health has been deteriorating. My outlook for obtaining employment has been zero. When I was younger, this didn't bother me that much. But this time it did. There was actually fear.

There was one sliver of hope left. A distant relative. Someone I have not seen for over 34 years. A distant cousin that took care of me when she was a young girl and I was an orphan  in Taiwan.
But then, she lives in China. For those who don't know, you can't just tranfer money out of China. It is unlawful to take money out of China.

So I called her and told her "I"m losing hope here. I all ask is hope to live on. In 2 weeks the first phase of the website will be done. 2 revisions and a custom app needs to be made. I am hoping you will look at it and consider helping out. "
And she said she will look at it and consider it.

Thats all I wanted. I am now mentally better. My distant cousin I have not seen in 30 years to look at a bad-ly made first version of a website. Hopefully she will be interested and help out in January.
Thats all needed. Hope.
Meanwhile I will figure out how to survive the next 2 months. Surviving. That, I'm good at. My specialty.

You Get What you pay for.

So Far, using Guru.com has been extremely difficult. Mainly due to the developer being (most likely) from Pakistan. It is quite understandable. You are poor in a third world country. I have to give respect for them trying to learn coding and trying to make a little bit of money from it. I can't know anyone studying and nerding it out from Pakistan to try to make it living.
However.........it is so frustrating on my end.

I can say so far.....Do NOT use a freelancer to make a complete website. Break it in small pieces and be prepared to write every tiny detail down. DO NOT have anything that allows the developer to use his own judgement!!! So far this experience is a "D".